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  • Earth

    My house smells like dirt.  It is fabulous. Last night a dear friend came over and we planted veggies and herbs in pots that will live in my front room/office/art studio.  (Yes, it is getting crowded up in here.)  At least I hope they will live!  I’ve already got a great rosemary plant, a struggling

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  • Birthday

    I  started bawling while I typed out a text to my daughter.  She turns nineteen today.  I can’t even wrap my head around that.  That tiny seven pound bundle of smiles and tears that was placed in my arms all those years ago changed everything about life and love.  And I know that lots of

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  • Lovely

    You don’t know how lovely you are… A lyric from a song I love, and a reminder for every day. I don’t know how lovely I am.  I’ve not been shown that often.  I’ve been shown all of the dark and terrible things over and over.  And the loveliness that did exist got shoved deep

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  • Diet

    I think that this title is somewhat of a “dirty” word.  Most of us think of it in terms of restrictions and frustrations and defeats.  I know that is how I often view dieting. This is also a somewhat new concern for me.  I am one of those people who was born fit and stayed

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  • Production

    Yesterday I deleted some people from my friends list on Facebook.  This isn’t uncommon, as far as my activities in a normal week might go.  It is uncommon that I have such a visceral reaction to the things people say that get them removed from the list. These people clearly hit a nerve.  So, I

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  • Wealth

    I won $25 in the form of an Amazon gift code.  I feel rich. Just kidding.  I am still super poor, but I wanted to make the point here that most people could lose $25 and not be terribly upset by the loss, while for me it feels like frigging Christmas wrapped in the lottery

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  • Feeling

    I have embarked upon the KonMari method of tidying my home and my life.  And it is a lot of damned work!  To collect all of your things is, in itself, a huge task.  To go through all of them is even more of a struggle. But it is also a gift. This morning, I

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  • Unwanted

    You speak of unwanted pregnancies You tell of the sanctity of life The ways that we must protect a fetus Every life is wanted Is destined By and from a creator But you don’t want the life The moment it becomes a burden The moment you are asked to share, to care, to change things

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  • Cancelled

    I am scheduled for a mammogram later today.  I’ve spent about the last 2 hours debating with myself about whether I do or do not wish to reschedule that appointment. I can make it. But I don’t want to worry about it. But I feel well enough. No, I don’t feel well. But I could

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  • Edits

    It is a weird process that I am embarking upon this winter.  I have decided to purge. I am cleaning out closets, slowly but surely, and getting rid of things that are not used or that don’t fit.  I’m looking through my home and my life and my psyche and trying to let go of

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