letting go
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In preparation for a short mission to cheer up a niece who needs her auntie, I was crossing tasks off my to do list this morning. One of the most daunting of the tasks was to retrieve my suitcase from the guest room/office closet. It is daunting because my second bedroom serves as both guest
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This afternoon, I anointed a candle, said a little incantation that I devised on the fly, and lit said candle. It felt like the thing to do. The spell is one called “Road Opener”, and it is meant to do just that–open roads, in the proverbial sense. I felt a shift
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I’m not certain if control issues were inherited or ingrained, but my mother was the pinnacle of having things in order, and bits of her need to control all the things all the time were handed down to me, and I handed bits down to my daughter. It isn’t always a bad thing to want
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When you have been hurt by people in the past, it can be really hard to trust people in the now. And it isn’t the fault of whomever you are with now if someone before hurt you, but it is also not easy to keep the two experiences separate in your mind and heart. As
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I started bawling while I typed out a text to my daughter. She turns nineteen today. I can’t even wrap my head around that. That tiny seven pound bundle of smiles and tears that was placed in my arms all those years ago changed everything about life and love. And I know that lots of
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Once in a while I sit and reflect. Just be. In the silence, alone, waiting, and living inside my own head. It is a different feeling, this reflection, because usually I am always thinking, in the most deliberate of ways, but without conscious effort. My mind just doesn’t stop. I’m constantly assessing—for threats, I assume,
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There are several ways of being in the world, I suppose. We all choose in every moment how we will interact with the world around us. This morning, I emptied a container of one of the two chemical-laden delicacies I allow myself–flavored non-dairy creamer (the other is processed cheese…because it melts so beautifully and reminds
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