Autism Thoughts
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When you have been hurt by people in the past, it can be really hard to trust people in the now. And it isn’t the fault of whomever you are with now if someone before hurt you, but it is also not easy to keep the two experiences separate in your mind and heart. As…
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There is a line in Lewis Carroll’s tales of Alice’s Adventures that reads: “You’re not the same as you were before,” he said. You were much more… muchier… you’ve lost your muchness.” I’ve often liked that line, spoken to Alice about the ways that she has changed. And though the point of Carroll’s writing was…
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The news tells me to take a moment of silence at 6:00 pm. And I will do so, in honor of the 50 people dead, and the others still fighting for life. But I can’t remain in silence. Not this day. Not in this moment and after this event. I need to cry. I need…
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Over the last several weeks I have been embarking on a project to increase my wall art. I’ve lived in this apartment for five years now, and it is about time that I make the walls my own, instead of just putting a few things on existing nails leftover from someone else’s decorating. It is…
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The last few days I haven’t been able to keep control of my letters. They keep switching up and making the words I mean to write a jumbled mess. And this is not figurative in any way. I’m seriously dyslexic of late. It isn’t a major issue, since we have these lovely computer checks of…
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Yesterday I received a rude message. It made accusations against me, because I had posted on Facebook both an update to my fundraiser, requesting donations to pay bills in May, and a request for pictures of items my mother had painted, to utilize at my tattoo consultation. In the mind of the one offering the…
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There was a time in my life when I was involved in a bit of Wiccan foreplay. I never actually joined a coven or became a card-carrying member of the organization, but I certainly dabbled for a while. It is interesting that for some years after, I had an aversion to such things, and sort…
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I was thinking a lot the past few days about what it is to be brave. I had a friend tell me that I am brave, and the next morning I was engaged in a guided meditation to help me be less afraid. I am always afraid, in a sense. PTSD keeps your system in…
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